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I don't know what good this will do, when I'm in a problem of my own making and, on the one hand, I feel like I'm giving up because it's too hard, which is something I never thought I would do, but on the other hand, I feel like I'm pushing forward and trying to meet this halfway and instead I'm expected to do all the work.

So I'll start from the beginning, I guess, and I'm hoping that by taking 30 days to think this through, talk it out here, figure out what I want and whether this can meet my bare minimums or if I will continuously be disappointed. I'm sincerely hoping that I'll know closer to May 15 than May 20th, if only because it seems more cruel to do what I'm considering closer to the beginning of June than not.

In any case.

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Challenge #7:

LIST THREE (or more) THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF. They don’t have to be your favorite things, just things that you think are good. Feel free to expand as much or as little as you want.

 
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Challenge 
#5:

In your own space, create a list of at least three things you'd love to receive, a wishlist of sorts.
 

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Challenge 
#4: Rec The Contents Of Your Last Page

Any website that you like, be it fanfiction, art, social media, or something a bit more eccentric!
 
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Challenge 
#3: Write a love letter to fandom. It might be to fandom in general, to a particular fandom, favourite character, anything at all.
 

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Challenge #2: Pets of Fandom

Loosely defined! Post about your pets, pets from your canon, anything you want!


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Challenge #1

The Icebreaker Challenge: Introduce yourself. Tell us why you're doing the challenge, and what you hope to gain from it.


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Challenge #3

In your own space, talk about a fannish opinion you hold that has changed over time. Post your answer to today’s challenge in your own space and leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

I think the opinion that has changed the most, honestly, has been my ability to watch shows like My Hero Academia and the like without going "why are they making children do this oh my god." As a teacher myself, it's harder and harder for me to accept that young children (you know the age, the fifteen to nineteen years-old protagonists) just have to save the world and there's not a thing the adults and mature people around them can do except cheer them on. Rewatching Bleach (or trying to) or Fullmetal Alchemist I'm constantly yelling at the television "He's a CHILD! You can't expect a child to do XYZ!" Anyway.

It's a fairly tame one, I suppose. I can't think of any other major opinion I have that has drastically changed, just gained nuance over the years. Some examples I can think of:

  • I've always preferred m/m ships over f/f ships. Now, with years of experience, I've identified my dislike was because most fandoms have little development of female characters and especially few connections between female characters and other characters in general, while giving men huge backstories, so it was easier for me to see connections between the men than women. I still don't always enjoy f/f ships, but good fanfic authors give me the connections and development I'm looking for and I no longer actively ignore f/f ships.
  • I've always believed Tony Stark to be right in Civil War, and while that hasn't changed, I've softened my stance on how angry I was at Steve Rogers' side. I don't agree with him at all, still, but I'm less inclined to want to see him grovel in stories lol
  • I've never tied authors to their work — i.e., when Joanne Kathleen wrote the HP series, I never really cared about them personally, just enjoyed playing in the world they created (especially when it was so poorly written that nothing was well-explained, giving me huge freedom to do my favorite thing: world-building). So when they came out as transphobic, and when I found a whole list of actors and writers who refused to support palestine — or actively worked to support israhell — it didn't detract from my ability to turn their work into something I can continue writing about, even if I don't engage with their new movies.
  • I've never enjoyed the propaganda slant of Marvel (it's why I liked Iron Man movies, they were all about the main character messing up and realizing it was his own people and flaws that made his problems, not some outside ooOooO scary terrorist) and what with the blatant cash grabbing of Disney and the terrible, terrible character of Sabra in the new Captain America movie, I'm just happy I divorced from caring about Marvel when I did, which was at Endgame with the terrible plot and writing. I tried to get into the Marvel series (I had loved Agent Carter when it came out) and started Falcon and the Winter Soldier, but it just seemed empty, and I watched the Kamala Khan series but it was... more than a little disappointing, from a Muslim perspective.

I honestly can't think of any other big opinions I have in fandom beyond, like, preferences and ignoring certain parts of canon to keep writing, or the like. And overall, growing older has only really enhanced my understanding of why I hate or dislike ABC.

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Challenge #2

In your own space, talk about your fannish origin story. Post your answer to today’s challenge in your own space and leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

I think the very earliest I remember really being in fandom and liking a story well enough to create my own fanfiction of it was, of all things, Robin Hood. I must have been... ten? Eleven? Creating a "children of Robin Hood" story, with a daughter of Robin, a son of Will, etc. I also vaguely remember creating a transformers spin off, and my first real story I wrote was a retelling / redo of Logan/Wolverine's origin story, except as teenagers because teenagers were cool to me when I was barely out of middle school.

But fandom and writing has always been something I've loved to do, and with practice and growth I eventually became really enamored of X-Men fanfiction while in early college. It was a weird branching for me — I was looking for something entirely different and ended up finding male slash fanfiction (lemon, is what it was called in that day and age) on a web page called LeDiableBlanc. (I'm tempted to see if that website is still up and running...)

It was home to a lot of fanfiction, all centered on Remy LeBeau / Gambit (my second or third fandom crush) and him with various other male X-Men, and it really had a formative effect on me, my writing, and what I liked to read and write. From there I fell into The Losers fanfiction, and then into Marvel (The Avengers, specifically). There were many other smaller fandoms (you can see my fandoms and pairings here, if you're so inclined) but those are the big ones that stuck with me — X-Men, The Losers, and Phase 1 and 2 of The Avengers.

(Oh my god, it's still around. I may just fall down the rabbit hole of rereading all these old fanfictions. Here is the main page of LeDiableBlanc, and here is the fanfiction page that enraptured seventeen to nineteen year old me.)

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Challenge #1

Update your fandom information. Post your answer to today’s challenge in your own space and leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

I'm going to link to last year's post, as I can't really find much difference between then and now, which is maybe a little depressing, but who knows.

But for reference, my fandom spaces that are active are:

Ao3: My writing

Tumblr: My (very old) blog

Less active (practically INactive), but existing, is here (livejournal), on dreamwidth, or on pillowfort.

My bio (which has not changed): 30-40 y.o. block | cis | pronouns: she/her | heterosexual | Arab-American (white-passing/white) | this author stands with Palestine 🇵🇸🍉🇵🇸

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Day 5 - community and/or platform recs

I have to say, I'm not a big... contributor, I guess you could say. I am a lurker. But I enjoy watching and following and lurking on quite a few communities.

The cap/ironman dreamwidth community is an amazing place and full of a lot of fun challenges for the fandom.

There is a wonderful prompt meme for drabbles and shorts, full of a lot of lesser known fandoms called fic promptly on dreamwidth that I wish I participated more in.

I found a really cool pillowfort community for marvel in general - a kinkmeme (so 18+ only, please).

I also follow a lot of fanartists and fanfic writers on patreon! There's Mauw, Ecchima, and lipeka, who are all amazing artists!

I'm sure there are others I'm forgetting, honestly. But tumblr, pillowfort, dreamwidth, and even discord (even though discord terrifies me) are great places to find communities.
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Day 3 - Touching moment in original canon

I've got to say, Iron Man is and always will be my favorite superhero. I love him to death, and I love what he represents - humanity, in essence: the intense narcissism to the intense love and care and hope humans can show. I think if I was going to pick any moment, I would pick the moment where he first faces Ivan Vanko, in the Monaco race.

See, he's just himself there. He doesn't have the suit, and yet he tries to stop Vanko without it. When he gets the suit, he's clearly on the ropes, but he doesn't fly away. He doesn't back down. He doesn't fly away, he adapts and drags Vanko close, and even when Vanko's spitting poison he's thinking, calculating. Because he's dying here, and yet he's still trying so hard. He's trying to figure out how Vanko could have replicated the arc reactor, he's trying to minimize casualties, he's always pushing so hard and it's just an amazing scene that really reflects his humanity.




(I've also got to add that the most thrilling and stunning intro of any superhero was Thor in Thor: Ragnarok, when he comes slamming down from where Hela had him. That's just - that's just pure poetry, man. In those few minutes, I am a Thor fangirl through and through.


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Day 2 - Fanfic Rec

There are so many fics that I love, and quite a few that I revisit, but I'll try to pick some that I really, really love, from different fandoms.

The Losers (2010)

The Sniper at the Gates of Heaven, by JoeLawson

Sherlock Holmes (2009)

Observations on Sentinels and Guides in Victorian London, by RyuuzaKochou


And then unfinished stories that I love and return to in hopes that more has been written:

Marvel Cinematic Universe

Born from the Earth, by venusm

Overwatch (Video Games)

Ghost Stories On Route 66, by Nagaina


Also I'll just say anything from sciencefictioness, Nagaina, ficlicious, sabremc, storm_petrel, and tisfan is absolutely stunning and I love revisiting their pages and going over stories that I particularly love.
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Day 1 - Your Happy Place

If I were to pick a happy place... I think it'd have to be listening to music. Even at work, when things are going badly enough to make me want to cry, if I can pull away on a break and put on music I can normally calm myself down.

The safest place, I would say, is my room. I am still one of those people who are living with their parents because I never developed enough independence to do anything on my own, so the house is not mine, but the room is mine.
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This was something I developed over time, and I wish someone had mentioned this to me at the very beginning as a teacher. (Maybe teachers learn this in school, and my just jumping into the field sans appropriate degree is the problem.)

Document, document, document. I'll get to behavior documentation later; I am talking about grades.

Who doesn't document grades? says most people, me among them as I started teaching.

Turns out, I didn't document enough. Our school is broken up into 6-week grading periods, giving us 6 grading periods in total (36 weeks is one school year). I would diligently record grades, more or less upload them in time, and never had a problem.

Until one of my students (a low student, yes, and the parents knew it, but still) got a 65% instead of the 70~ ish they had been coasting by with the previous three grading periods.

The parents demanded to know why there wasn't any warning. Which, as a teacher, I will tell you flat out honestly it is an extremely obvious and appropriate question to ask, but also that I am so freaking run down trying to grade tests and build tests, and assign homework and collect homework, trying to input all the grades and make sure everything in the class is running smoothly, I just honestly did not stop to think that "hmm, it's about halfway through the grading period — I ought to look through the current grade averages, identify the students who are in danger of failing this grading period, and alert their parents."

Looking back on it, it seems so effing obvious, but it really was something no one had ever told me as a new teacher, and so it is the first thing you should start out with: always, always, always alert parents to everything happening. Parents will either thank you for amazing communication or delete the email — but at least you have proof that you did alert someone that something was happening.
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Okay, so this is both extremely common sense, but also really important to remember because it's EASY to forget. Don't ever, ever, get into a battle of wills with a student. Your job is to be the adult in any situation. This means no matter how stubborn the student, no matter how frustrating, getting into a fight — it can be physical (as I did accidentally, when trying to take away a toy a student was playing with) or verbal, as I thankfully have never done but I've heard other teachers do - is a surefire way to lose control of the classroom.


When teachers are in a classroom and a student decides to defy your authority, don't get into a 'I'm the teacher, you have to do it.' For me (with private school kids, who are waaaay more concerned about their grades than normal kids, or so I've heard, but I have no real experience with), I make it very clear that they are responsible for their own learning. If I have a student who's refusing to write, I simply say, "Don't be surprised if your grade suffers; this is what I'm grading today. You must get it done before class is over. You may not take it home as homework."


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I'm trying this - trying to post, like, tips and tricks and things I've learned as a teacher. For this, though, there needs to be a bit of background -

When I graduated from college, I had two degrees that were fairly useless: Creative Writing and Political Science. Eventually, I chose to go to graduate school, but when the classes part of my graduate schooling ended and the scholarship ran out, I needed something. At the exact same time, my mother, who worked at a private religious school, had been mentioning that they were looking for teachers. I decided to try, with no teaching certificate and no training beyond watching (and aiding) my mother as a teacher since I was in 3rd grade.

Now, the thing about religious schools (Muslims ones, at least) is that they pay crap. Like, easily less than half the starting salary for a teacher. But it was a salary, which was more than I had. They also accept almost anyone. (Almost.) So I got the job, and that was 3 years ago.

I love teaching, but I came in with nothing but what I watched my mom do, and what I call 'common sense.' I've gone to countless seminars on teaching, and in all of them they all seem to be just... reminders? Like, they're things we should already know and that make sense to do, but they're good reminders.

So, that being said, I'm going to try and compile a list of 100 things I've learned as someone who just, very literally, walked into teaching. This year, my goal will be to get my certification, and I hope by the time I have it, I'll have finished this list.

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